This is a post that I have been contemplating writing for over a year, maybe more. But in light of recent events both privately and with celebrities in the public eye, I think now is about the right time.
I have depression. As in, not the depression where you have a bad day at work and have a little cry about it, but the full blown weeks on end of utter desolation and hopelessness kind of depression. I've had it for years and years, I can't remember a time where I've been fully happy in fact. To think that there are people who have never suffered with debilitating bouts of depression is extraordinary to me. Yet despite this, for the longest time I was convinced I was completely alone in my feelings. I was convinced beyond belief that I was very peculiar for feeling as shit as I did, but still I didn't see a doctor. For years and years I suffered in silence, and if there is one piece of advice I can give to anyone who thinks they might have depression it's this: Go get help. Seriously. The doctor isn't going to call you melodramatic or tell you you're over reacting (that's what I thought would happen to me.)
Depression is a serious disease that needs medical attention, even if you don't want it. I was terrified of anti-depressants, terrified they would make me numb and remove any emotions from me, but they don't, they make me normal. Life can be crap sometimes, and you are not weak if life gets to you.
After I was diagnosed a few years ago, I spent ages debating whether or not to tell people. I did tell people, and I was surprised at just how many people told me they also suffered from depression.
I don't know what the point of this post was to be honest. Basically, if you think you may have depression or you're feeling really, really down, help is there.
The NHS have a whole pages of helplines: http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Suicide/Pages/Getting-help.aspx
Also, Buzzfeed recently wrote an article that hits the nail on the head. I find a lot of their articles miss the mark somewhat, but this, this I like: http://www.buzzfeed.com/alexisnedd/things-nobody-tells-you-about-being-depressed?bffb
You can always email me too, I've had depression for years, so I know how you feel! email@example.com
Time to Change is also an awesome website that focuses on ending mental health discrimination, I suggest you all check it out: http://www.time-to-change.org.uk/
Hopefully my next post will be a bit cheerier